11/6/13-Today I was supposed to have my first session with my new therapist, however I had a sort of break down and could not go. I don't feel like recovering. I feel to fat to need help!
12/6/13-Went shopping with my mum today. I decided to try on a pair of UK size 4 shorts. They were too tight and I was so upset as they would have fitted Pre-recovery. I was in tears in the changing room and my mum didn't even try to reassure me in any way. I then started looking at my back and there was so much fat on it, it looked disguising and my mums response "Do some exercise" I feel so bad at the moment I have been restricting today and I'm going to continue to do so. I want to be thin even if that means being underweight! I WILL BE THIN! relapse here I come!
Wednesday, 12 June 2013
Sunday, 9 June 2013
Eating Disorder update June 2013
My therapist has a new job which means I have a new therapist. I was introduced to her last week and I took an instant dislike to her. I did not like my previous therapist to begin with however I was starting to get to know her, I feel that getting a new therapist will really hinder my recovery as I am already struggling. Recovery why are you so hard!!? Hope yous are all well!
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